http://hellishlygood.psychcentral.net My very own blog Mon, 14 Jul 2008 04:12:52 +0000 http://backend.userland.com/rss092 en I am meant to be writing a new post - a very long one. My psychiatrist wants for me to describe, in detail, how I have been feeling for the last few days because earlier this week I had a bit of a break down and gave my mum a ... http://hellishlygood.psychcentral.net/2008/07/13/coming-up/ The world had been kind to her and she was blissfully ignorant. Evil had been restricted from her view and silenced from her ears. She brought more children into the world; a world she assumed was truly good. Two daughters she should never have had. She witnessed the evil brought ... http://hellishlygood.psychcentral.net/2008/07/13/too-scared-to-post-this-in-creative/             I am coming off seroquel. I am coming off pimozide. I am coming off my meds! I actually have no idea what the date is today because I never keep track of the date but today is a turning point in my life. Well, it will be if I ... http://hellishlygood.psychcentral.net/2008/07/01/cheer-coming-off-meds-cheer/ I don’t feel right. I am not sure if this is the absence of unhappiness or this is the numbness that is brought about before a deep bout of depression. Is this being normal? Not always feeling so unbelievably miserable? Or are things going to get worse? I am scared ... http://hellishlygood.psychcentral.net/2008/06/30/depression/ Sir Francis Bacon once said; "Whosoever is delighted in solitude is either a wild beast or a God". Paul Brunton once said; "Solitude is strength; to depend on the presence of crowd is weakness".  These are two of my favourite quotes. I spend a large portion of my time searching for ... http://hellishlygood.psychcentral.net/2008/06/29/weak-good-or-strong-evil-serious-trigger/ Guten Morgen! I realised at precicely 2.30 am this morning (Saturday the 28th I believe it is) that I have not taken this blog seriously at all. Half the time it is incoherent and mostly just rants that no one but me would understand. For an English student I think I ... http://hellishlygood.psychcentral.net/2008/06/27/starting-over-opening-the-closed-book/ Why do some people not realise that their actions effect others? Last night I was talking to a really nice friend who was in need of some support. Then someone else, I will call her 'X' comes online and triggers me very badly. Why did she feel the need to do ... http://hellishlygood.psychcentral.net/2008/06/24/fcking-people/  TRIGGER WARNING FOR LATER ON!!! SERIOUS TRIGGER ON CHILD ABUSE AND SEXUAL ABUSE!  DO NOT READ!! Seriously, I may get graphic so please do not read if you are at all triggered. I recently started seeing a psychiatrist again. About three weeks ago I decided that now was the time to ... http://hellishlygood.psychcentral.net/2008/06/18/back-to-the-psychiatrists-office/ Why is sadness just so inevitable? I can be talking to someone, even managing to take my mind off of everything but still, there is no happiness, just sadness. I don’t want to be here anymore. It isn’t even my mum or the voices or ANYTHING; I can cope with ... http://hellishlygood.psychcentral.net/2008/05/27/depressed/ why do you keep telling em to call her? she cant answer and i don't like her. things on my wall, voices telling me to. idk why they are tlaking about. i'm upset http://hellishlygood.psychcentral.net/2008/05/17/call-her/