“Hell is empty and all the devils are here.”

Oddly, I didn’t think I would be complaining about school on this blog but it is 1.03 am and here I am! I haven’t been to school in a week because I was ill. I keep missing more and more school and I hate myself for it. I just cannot face it but I don’t know why! I don’t find it hard; the people are nice; it isn’t far away, yet i panic! I just feel sick and suffocated. When I get home after being in, I am a different person: one who I have no control over. I am impulsive, negative, irrational, emotional. So, I opt for not attending. Of course, this is a worry as I - or my mum - could get into trouble. Not to mention I am risking my 6th form place. University was always a definite for me and my school are expecting me to get a scholarship. Now I do not want to go to 6th form???! It doesn’t add up! I doubt I will go in tomorrow and I have friends counting on me. Sorry to let you down again, sorry that I can’t cope with everyday obselete tasks.